Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Monday, January 29, 2007
I tell you this because Emmalee has developed the 'toddler-mine complex.' She's beginning to remind me of the seagulls on 'Finding Nemo' - MINE, MINE, MINE. Everything is hers. And not just things such as toys. Me, Daddy, our laps, the bath. Even today I was taking pictures of Tyler and having her picture taken was "MINE!" So, as you see, she jumped in front of the camera. If you look closely, you can see Tyler's leg. It is actually kind of funny and just goes to show that she is right on target developmentally. I'll be glad when the 'mine' stage goes although that means that she's growing up. Not sure how I feel about that! She is just too funny and I love every moment with her!
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Sunday, January 21, 2007
I got home and just hugged my husband. I am truly blessed to be married to my best friend. I am thankful to know that Brent would never treat me this way and I am also thankful to know that I would never allow it. I hope I can instill this same confidence in my children.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
*Use the proper utensils when eating.
*Speak using proper grammar.
*Learn to write.
*Be invited to a sleepover.
*Run a marathon.
*Learn to read.
*Pass school tests.
*Get good grades in school.
*Finish high school.
*Get and/or keep a job.
*Move out of the house.
*Go to college.
These are all things my child may never do and that's okay. Oh, and because Tyler has Down syndrome, he may never do these things either! I have come to realize that even though Emmalee is a "typical" child, there is no guarantee that she will accomplish all these things. And although Tyler has Down syndrome, that doesn't automatically exclude him from doing these things. Tyler has just as much potential as any of my other children or any child for that matter. True, it may take him longer than other children and he may not do it as well as others. But I fully believe that our little boy will be able to do anything he sets his mind to. In fact, we'll expect him to do his best, to work hard and to accomplish all the goals he can! I also know in my heart that his accomplishments will be that much more rewarding for us and for him. What a blessing he is! And Emmalee too! :)
*I love clean sheets on my bed and getting into a freshly made bed for the first time.
*I love pb&j sandwiches but only with grape jelly.
*I love watching the snow fall, especially if the flakes are really large and there is no wind.
*I love sitting outside on the first really warm Spring day, knowing that Winter is done and Summer is around the corner.
*I love feeling the first chill of Fall in the air and seeing the first hint of color in the leaves.
*I love Diet Coke and anything chocolate, especially Chocolate Lasagna from Olive Garden.
*I love putting on a pair of pants or a coat and finding money in the pocket.
*I love getting letters in the mail from an old friend I haven't heard from in a long time.
*I love taking clothes out of the dryer and feeling how warm they are. I also love smelling them!
*I love peeking in on my kids when they are playing and listening to them giggle together.
*I love sleeping in.
*I love sleeping, period!
*I love books. There is nothing so satisfying as reading a good book.
*I love going to bookstores or the library.
*I love getting my hair washed at the salon.
*I love the smell of Johnson's Baby Lotion in the pink bottle. I love it even more when it is on a baby.
*I love hearing Brent play the piano.
*I love being able to laugh with my sister. The best part is that we can laugh at nothing and it is still funny!
*I love how excited the kids get when they hear Brent come through the door after a long day at work.
*I love knowing that no matter what may happen, I have a wonderful husband, family and friends who love and support me.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Friday, January 12, 2007
Monday, January 8, 2007
Sunday, January 7, 2007
The difference for us, as for so many of our friends, is that we can't decide that we want another baby and then start trying and get pregnant and nine months later have our child. It just isn't that way with us. We have a whole different type of pregnancy. :) It is one of varying length...could be a few weeks, could be years. There are a whole different type of questions and circumstances when it comes to adoption. The whole experience is just different. Not in a bad way, necessarily, just different.
So, back to the desire. I am ready. Brent is ready. I am ready now, today, this moment. I want to hear the baby fussing for me in the other room. I want to make bottles and wash newborn clothes. I want to go shopping for a new infant car seat and newborn diapers and tiny socks. I want to sit on the couch and stare at him or her and be in total awe. I want to see the reactions that Collin, Tyler and Emmalee will have to their new little sibling. I want to see Brent holding our child for the first time. I want, I want, I want.....I ache.
I also picture this beautiful child in my mind and always picture another baby with Down syndrome. I know we are meant to adopt another one with that little something extra. I am thrilled and humbled. I pray that I am worthy for another little angel. I pray they come quickly.
The journey continues.....
Thursday, January 4, 2007
Tuesday, January 2, 2007
Okay, I'm kidding, sort of. I do resolve to do something for myself this year that I should have been doing for awhile. But, it requires that I put myself out there and get out of my comfort zone. That is not easy for me. This year I resolve to work harder on my books. I am going to really search for a publisher or at least figure out how to go about that whole thing. I am scared to death of rejection. However, I also realize that if I don't at least try, I will always wonder. That's worse than putting myself out there. So, here's hoping that by this time next year, I will be a published author. We'll see how it goes. If I become famous, you can all say you knew me when.... *smile*