tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7213438909841079272024-03-14T03:26:20.498-05:00The Gardner Groove..........welcome to our little spot on the webJodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.comBlogger366125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-83241225909710869452015-09-01T13:35:00.000-05:002015-09-01T13:38:24.576-05:00Happy 8th Birthday, Nate the Great!<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Eight years ago today, unbeknownst to us, a teeny-tiny little boy was born fifteen weeks early and with a host of medical issues. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">When Nate was a few days old we received a call from our adoption agency. Would we consider adopting this tiny little one? The odds were against him. He was very small and very sick. He needed a LOT of medical care. He would be in the NICU for a long time. He had so many medical needs. His future was unknown. But he needed a family. Would we consider becoming his family? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I'm not sure how long Brent and I talked about it - not more than a couple of days. I know we prayed together and separately. We prayed and then we prayed again. We were worried. We were so afraid that if we said yes and this sweet boy didn't make it that our hearts would break. We weren't sure how his future medical needs may impact Tyler and Emmalee. Given Tyler's special needs we weren't sure it was the best idea to commit ourselves to bringing home a little one whose needs were so complex. So we prayed again. And we received the answer that our hearts already knew. This miracle baby was meant to be in our family. We put our trust in the Lord and prayed that he would help Nate to grow and thrive. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Nate faced an uphill battle during his nearly four months in the NICU. He had several set backs. He had heart surgery. He had brain bleeds. We were told at one point that they weren't sure he would make it. And through it all we prayed and prayed. Our family and friends prayed. And Nate thrived. He beat the odds and a few days shy of turning four months old he came home. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I am constantly amazed at how far this sweet little boy has come in eight years. He has struggled in many ways and the path hasn't always been easy. But I remember the days of worrying that he would never walk or talk. The days when we were convinced he was deaf. The days we prayed he wasn't blind. Those worries are gone now. Yes, Nate has challenges....Autism, Fetal-Alcohol Spectrum Disorder, ADHD, a colostomy. He also has a super silly personality. He's extremely loving. He is very smart and sometimes shocks us with the things he can do. He loves school, loves to play music, loves to watch tv, loves his family, loves life. He is the sweetest little eight year old ever!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">There are so many things I love about Nate. I love that he sleeps with his head completely covered but his feet uncovered. I love that the silliest things make him laugh. </span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I LOVE his laugh -- it is so contagious!</span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"> I love that he loves music so much. I love that he gets super excited when he sees me after school as he comes off the bus. I love that he is pretty easy going and doesn't mind going with the flow for the most part. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I am so thankful that Nate is part of our forever family. I'm thankful every day that Heavenly Father answered our prayers and helped us to realize that this amazing little boy was meant to be with us. I simply can't imagine our family without him.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-77970139343314661662014-06-01T13:05:00.003-05:002014-06-01T13:05:35.766-05:00Happy Tenth Birthday, Tyler Jacob Charles!<span style="background-color: white; color: #37404e; font-family: Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">Ten years ago today our incredible little boy was born. Ten years ago Brent and I were hoping, longing and praying for our first child to join our family. We had no idea that our son had been born more than 1500 miles away. Tyler was blessed with an incredible birth family and a loving first family who cared for him for his first weeks of life until he became ours. I'm still in awe of all the miracles that transpired in those weeks. My heart is so full of love for all those who loved our boy first. I know their love continues and we are so thankful for each of them. We love you C & T and G & S. God bless you today and always! Adoption truly is a miracle!</span>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-10412986986915915322013-09-23T20:51:00.002-05:002013-09-23T20:51:58.735-05:00Childhood Cancer Awareness Month<div style="text-align: justify;">
As September winds down I can't help but feel frustrated and a little sad. September is Childhood Cancer Awareness Month. Just one month that is meant to support ALL of the childhood cancers. Leukemia, Neuroblastoma, Lymphoma, Ewing sarcoma, Hodgkin disease, Retinoblastoma....and too many others. And we are supposed to somehow bring awareness to all these cancers in a single month. </div>
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October is coming soon. And the country will focus on breast cancer awareness. And that's fantastic! People will dress in pink and wear pink ribbons and participate in pink runs and walks. Football teams will wear pink jerseys. I'm pretty sure the White House and the Empire State Building even have pink lights at some point. And I'm thankful for the awareness. Truly I am. I know many women who are breast cancer survivors. And it is because of all the steps that have been taken and the research and the early mammograms that they have survived. And I am so, so thankful.</div>
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And yet, I can't help but wish that childhood cancer awareness was even half as important to others as breast cancer awareness is. I wish that the White House had gold lights. I wish that there was more money focused on childhood cancer research. I wish that more children could be saved.</div>
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I know too many families whose children have fought this horrible disease. I know too many families whose children have lost. Their faces will never leave me. Their amazing spirits will forever be a part of my life. I'm thankful to have known them. And as I look at Tyler and say a prayer of thanksgiving that he survived I can't help but think of those who did not. And it breaks my heart a little bit every time.</div>
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So parents, kiss your children. Hug them tight. Say a prayer of gratitude that they are healthy and happy. And pray that someday the focus on childhood cancer research will be greater. Pray that more children can be saved. Pray that these awful diseases aren't allowed to claim another child.</div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Remember that time in the fourth grade when I was supposed to make an Indian village out of clay? You stayed up until who knows when creating the perfect village. I couldn't believe it the next morning. You made a tee-pee. You made a fire pit using little rocks and real ash. You put tiny sticks for logs next to the fire pit. You crafted a river out of aluminum foil and made a canoe out of clay. You must have worked for hours and hours. It was incredible. I wish we had a picture. I got an A+ and my teacher asked if she could keep it to use as an example for others. I felt on top of the world. And I'm pretty sure I didn't give you nearly enough credit. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Remember that time in the fifth grade when I had to make a book labeling all of the steps of the scientific process? Once again, you stayed up all night making the perfect book. It had art work. It had perfect handwriting. It was neat and easy to follow. And I got an A+. I wish I still had it. It was the best book in all of fifth grade, I'm sure of it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Remember all the other projects you helped me with? Eighth grade Science Fair comes to mind. We worked so hard on that project and it paid off. I got one of the top five awards for our city. I was so proud. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><br /></span><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">A few months ago I helped Emmalee make a turkey project for school. She had to "dress" her turkey. We decided on a Victorian bride. She turned out lovely. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Our little project took nearly four hours. And I was wiped out. I had blisters on my fingers from the glue gun. There were pieces of purple turkey feathers all over the kitchen. I failed to take the teacher's advice and got a bit carried away. But it was so fun to work on something with my girl. It was great to see her enthusiasm for our project. It was all worth it when she thanked me for all my hard work when we were done.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Now I know why you worked so hard on all those projects. Now I understand how much you enjoyed it. I only hope I thanked you enough. I hope I let you know how much you were appreciated. Just in case I didn't, I wanted to say thank you.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I love you, Mom. For this and countless other reasons!! Happy Mother's Day!</span>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-15591256189525321352012-05-30T22:33:00.000-05:002012-05-31T09:00:25.479-05:00Pain<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I don't like pain. I'm not sure anyone does. I especially despise the pain that comes from heartbreak. The all consuming, overwhelming, blindsiding pain that happens when your heart is just plain broken.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">On March 19 I did something I prayed I'd never have to do. I had a hysterectomy. Though several doctors over the years had encouraged me to do it, I put it off. I begged and pleaded with them to find another solution. I prayed to my Father in Heaven to make my body work properly. I endured and suffered through month after month and year after year of physical pain. And finally my body was done and I was left with no other options. No more putting it off. It was time. And my heart was broken.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I have three incredible, beautiful, gifts from God. My children are amazing. And they are mine. In every sense of the word. No, I did not give birth to them. But they were meant to be my children. Of that, I have no doubt.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And yet....there was always this nagging voice in my mind. This little thought that someday, somehow, sometime we would try again. We would hope and pray and try. I always felt that there was this little person that we were meant to create, who was meant to come through me.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Once again I begged the doctor. I pleaded with him to find another way. Another solution. I begged him not to say those horrible words. I so desperately wanted more time. He was blunt and to the point. Not only would it be next to impossible to get pregnant, even with medical help, my body would never carry a baby to full term. My options were gone. My body had failed. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">And now, though the pain has ebbed, there are times like tonight when it hits, without warning, and it is so overwhelming and gut-wrenching that I feel paralyzed. And all I can do is sob. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #351c75; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I don't have all the answers. And I may never fully understand why. But I will do my best to trust in Him, to rely on Him and to believe that His plan is greater than my own. Sometimes that's all any of us can do.</span></div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-40301448337203121502011-12-21T07:54:00.003-05:002011-12-21T07:56:39.643-05:00Best Christmas Gift, EVER!!Moms of typical children may wait 18 months or so. Moms of children with special needs may wait a lifetime. With Nathaniel, I waited just over four years but it was so worth it! When I opened his bedroom door this morning to get him ready for school he said the one word I've longed to hear, "MOMMY!" Best Christmas present ever! And now I can't stop crying. :)<br /><br />Don't get me wrong. He has said the word before, when prompted. But he has never looked at me and said my name. He has said Daddy to Brent and Ty and Em's names. But not Mommy. I was so surprised when he said it that I just stood there for a second. Sure love that little boy!!Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-79144539109682759922011-09-21T09:13:00.003-05:002011-09-21T09:15:16.682-05:00Brent & Fundraisers<div style="text-align: justify;">Many of you follow Brent's caringbridge website and know that his health is very poor at this time. For those of you who don't know how things are going, here's the site information.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><a href="http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/brentgardner/">http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/brentgardner/</a></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">In an effort to help our family, several of our amazing friends have begun fundraisers on behalf of our family. Our friend Sue has put together a blog to keep everyone updated on the fundraisers. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><a href="http://help4thegardners.blogspot.com/">http://help4thegardners.blogspot.com/</a></div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-6177589013387386012011-09-13T21:16:00.002-05:002011-09-13T21:40:24.013-05:00Bag, Anyone?Tyler is starting to realize that not everyone has a colostomy bag. Recently he lifted my shirt up and said, "momma, where's your bag?" Brent, Em and I all had to pull our shirts up and show him our bellies so he could see that we don't have bags. I think that confused him more since Nate does have a bag.<div><br /></div><div>Ty is somewhat obsessed with his bag. It is a constant battle with him -- pulling the bag off, hitting the bag, lifting his shirt to get to the bag, going down his shirt to get to the bag, etc. We are constantly telling him, "Ty, don't touch your bag....don't take your bag off!" </div><div><br /></div><div>Apparently he didn't realize that our dog, Max, doesn't have a bag. This morning things were a little bit crazy in our house. Em was sick which threw off my whole groove. I was running around trying to get everyone ready, out the door and on their buses on time. Poor Max was crying and needed to go potty. I was changing Tyler's diaper and I was ignoring Max and hoping he would be able to hold it for just a couple more minutes. He couldn't. He gave me a sheepish look and started to poop on the floor. I immediately yelled at him, "MAX, DON'T POOP!" Tyler, seeing the poop, yelled, "MAX! Don't take your bag off!"</div><div><br /></div><div>So glad he understands the rules. Now if we could just get him to follow them.....</div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-15837839328902963222011-09-12T20:40:00.003-05:002011-09-12T21:14:53.008-05:00Metal Head<div style="text-align: justify;">Nate likes to head butt. Hard. And it hurts. I try especially hard to not be on the receiving end. We all avoid it, if possible.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Poor Em got it good the other day. I heard it hit and it hit hard. Poor little bunny. When the crying had finally ceased she said to me, "Mom, why is Nate's head made of metal?" It was all I could do to not laugh, out loud, really loudly. I failed. She was not appreciative. So I did my best to explain that his skull is made of bone, just like the rest of ours. I'm not so sure she was convinced.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Fast forward to tonight. Em had me laying on her floor and she was giving me a back massage, aka hitting me really hard karate-chop style. **Funny side note....as she was beating me up -- I mean, massaging my back -- she says, in all seriousness, "isn't this just like being at a salon?" Of course it was. Only, not really.**</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">So, during the midst of my "salon massage" we could hear Natey jumping on his bed, yelling and just generally being wild. And I say to Em, "where does that kid get his energy?" And she replies, "who knows. What I wonder is where he gets his metal head from." This got me giggling for sure but her next comment had me laughing so hard I couldn't talk. She says, "you know mom, maybe black people's heads are just stronger." </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Oh Em, where do you come up with this stuff? </div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-19985248127662697102011-09-01T08:33:00.002-05:002011-09-01T08:55:34.471-05:00Happy Fourth Birthday, Nate!<div style="text-align: justify;">Four years ago today our sweet little Nate came into this world. He came much too soon. He was born 15 weeks early and weighed a whopping 17 ounces. His prognosis was poor. He faced an incredibly difficult uphill battle. The doctors weren't certain he would survive. All of the odds were stacked against him.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">And yet, his birth mom, with the greatest love and courage, made an adoption plan for him. She knew that if he did make it through, he would need a family. She contacted Adoption STAR and put the fate of her too small baby boy in their hands. Her love and sacrifice amaze me to this day.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Four years ago Brent and I were considering adopting again. It is something we had talked about quite a bit. But, though our hearts were ready, our finances weren't. We had decided that we would wait until 2008, until the money was there, until we were a bit more ready.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Of course, as we have learned time and time and time again, these things aren't exactly up to us. When we got the call about Nathaniel, just as with Tyler and Emmalee, I knew. I knew this sweet baby boy was meant to be in our family. I wasn't sure how we would make it happen but I had faith that if this was the plan for our family, it would work out.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Brent and I worried so much about Nathaniel's prognosis. At times the doctors were hopeful and encouraging. At times they were convinced he wouldn't survive. We were unable to go and visit him because our paperwork wasn't quite done and we were waiting on things like background checks and fingerprint clearances; things that were beyond our control. </div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Through it all Nate fought. He beat the odds, amazed the doctors and came through. He had setbacks and created fear and then beat the odds again. No doubt about it, that little boy is a fighter!! After all, he is a Gardner!</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Through it all we fought. We had yard sales and online fundraisers. We had raffles and, I'll admit, we outright asked for money. We had faith that it would work out. We KNEW this child was meant to be ours and we put our faith in Heavenly Father, knowing that He would help us get things in order.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">And He did. Looking back I am still overwhelmed by the love and generosity of our family, friends and even strangers. It still brings tears to my eyes. </div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Many people ask why Nathaniel's middle name is Roger. He is named after a very special man who helped to make sure that Nate made it home to our family. His financial contribution, along with a matching contribution from his company, was the final $1000 we needed to get Nate home. It was literally an answer to prayers. We decided to name our baby Nathaniel Roger so that we would always be reminded of his love and generosity. It is also a reminder that prayers are heard and that things do work out the way they are meant to.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Today our too small, very ill baby boy is four years old. As I write this I am overwhelmed with emotion. The past four years have been a roller coaster ride for our family. We have faced challenges we never could have predicted. And yet, just as Nate has always done, we have fought. We are strong and determined and faithful. After all, we are Gardner's!</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Nathaniel amazes me every single day. His name means "Gift from God" and he certainly is! </div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Happy Birthday, Natey. We love you!!!</div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-54370233013449706812011-08-11T06:25:00.003-05:002011-08-11T18:46:53.000-05:00Seven Years<div style="text-align: justify;">Seven years ago today I became a Momma. I held my sweet baby boy for the very first time and marveled that God had seen fit to allow me to parent this perfect angel. </div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">As we were preparing to come to NY to adopt Tyler I remember practicing over and over the first words I would say to him when I held him. "Hi, I'm your Momma." And I can clearly remember holding him close and whispering those words to him. It was something that I had longed to say to my child for many, many years. It was something I wasn't sure I would ever get to say. </div><div style="text-align: justify;">
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<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I clearly remember one particular day when I realized that this was my child, forever, and no one was coming to take him. I was rocking him and it was quiet in the house and I just had this overwhelming wave of emotion. I clearly heard the spirit tell me, "this is your child. This is the child that God intended for you to have." I sat and held my baby and cried for a long time that day. I cried tears of joy, tears of humility and tears that helped me let go of the emotion of waiting for that day to come. </div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Tyler has changed our lives in ways I could never have predicted. I am in constant awe of his strength, his spirit, his love for others. He amazes me every single day.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Many, many people are part of Tyler's story including his incredible birth family and his self-less first adoptive parents and many others. I think of them every day and say a prayer of gratitude that because of them, I am Tyler's Momma. </div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Tyler, we love you so very much! I am so thankful that on that beautiful day, seven years ago, I was able to whisper to you, "Hi, I'm your Momma." </div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-54293909324151857342011-07-06T21:25:00.001-05:002011-07-06T21:26:40.875-05:00It's A Hard Job!<div style="text-align: justify;">Dear Emmalee, </div><div style="text-align: justify;">It is not my job to be your best friend. It is my job to be the mom. I know that doesn't always make you happy. Just remember that I do it because I love you! Hopefully one day when you are the mom, you will appreciate it.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Love, </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Mom</div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-70419555564634966382011-06-18T11:22:00.003-05:002011-06-18T11:23:59.174-05:00NathanielNathaniel had colostomy surgery done on Monday, June 13. Feel free to follow along with his recovery by going to his Caringbridge site,<br /><br /><a href="http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/nathanielgardner">http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/nathanielgardner</a>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-80353194011802111122011-05-15T23:55:00.006-05:002011-05-19T20:28:53.208-05:00You can eat off my floor......<div style="text-align: justify;">......there are crumbs everywhere!</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">This is, perhaps, the perfect title for my blog. Or maybe it should be something like, "Send in the Clowns," complete with circus music playing when people log in. Most days this is how I feel.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I had to take a bloggy break. I haven't really posted lately and I really haven't kept up on reading any of my favorite blogs. It wasn't necessarily a conscious decision but I have to say, it has been a much needed break.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">It's funny....the "famous" blogs that I frequent are written by amazing women whose goal and desire is to help their readers feel good about themselves. For me, however, the opposite has happened. Instead of feeling better about myself as a mom/wife/friend/person, I began looking at myself and only seeing all the things I am not doing. I began comparing myself to these incredible women and feeling completely inadequate. After all, I don't sew, craft, sing, create fantastic art work, keep my house spotless or cook gourmet meals. I am not always patient. Sometimes I yell. Sometimes I want to lock myself in the bathroom and cry. (Okay, who am I kidding? Sometimes I DO lock myself in the bathroom.) I'm not a perfect mother or wife. I have low self esteem. I don't always shower. Sometimes I don't comb my hair. I don't quilt. I won't buy my kids Play-Doh because I hate the mess it makes. I'm not particularly good at anything specific. In other words, I'm nowhere near as amazing as these other moms. They do awesome things with and for their families. They bake, they sew, they grow their own food, they leap tall buildings in a single bound. They cook full course meals. They host fantastic parties. They go on fun family outings. They take hundreds of pictures so that they don't lose any memories. They enjoy every single second of parenthood. How do I know? Because despite how incredibly busy they must be, they are kind enough to blog about all of these things.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Don't get me wrong.....I'm not criticizing these amazing women. I love them. I have spent days/weeks/months/years attempting to be more like them. Wishing my life was more like theirs. And instead of realizing how amazing my own life is in its unique way, I eventually began comparing myself to them and only seeing my shortcomings. This led to my unplanned but very much needed bloggy break.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">And then it hit me. DUH! I am not these women! My family life is nothing like theirs. My children are not like their children. I am me! My world is not their world and that's okay. Not only is it okay, it is amazing! I reminded myself that this is the life we chose. We chose to parent kids with special needs. We chose to take on these extra challenges, believing we were capable of doing it. And I have to say, for the most part I feel like we do a pretty good job.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">So..........</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Did I bake bread today? Nope. Instead I changed a colostomy bag. I cheered because even though he is almost four years old, Nate said "momma" more clearly than he ever has. I got a bit frustrated that even though he's nearly seven, Tyler still likes to throw his food on the floor when he's finished instead of just pushing his plate aside. I laughed so hard that I cried when Tyler tried to wink at me.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Did I sew a quilt today? Nope. Instead I watched a home video of Tyler as he was going through chemo and said a silent prayer of thanks that that chapter of our lives is over. I did some research on Autism and attempted to learn how to better help Nathaniel. I listened to Emmalee read a story to her brothers and marveled at how amazing she is with them. I sat through Nate's CPSE meeting and explained why he needs to be in a full day program next year so that he gets enough therapy in his day.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"> Did I host a fabulous party? Nope. Instead I prayed no one came over unannounced because my house was pretty messy and I hadn't taken a shower. I did some research on colostomy surgery since Nate is scheduled for that in June. I worried about how I am going to coordinate help and childcare for when that happens and we are faced with yet another hospital stay. </div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Did I cook a gourmet meal? Nope. Instead Brent and I researched Behcet's disease in an attempt to understand more about his illness and it's symptoms. I emailed a new mom whose son was unexpectedly born with Down syndrome. I took great pride in my sweet little Emmalee as she set the table for our very simple dinner.</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Did we have a perfect family outing? I suppose. Perfect for us, anyway. Our perfect family outings generally consist of taking a drive in the van and going through an automatic car wash. The kids love it and Tyler is always sad when it's done. We don't do restaurants because the noise and stress are too much for the boys so we got take-out instead. And then we had to cut it short because Tyler pulled his colostomy bag off and Nate had a meltdown. That's pretty much par for the course on our family outings. (I can't even imagine trying to take a major trip somewhere. Maybe someday!)</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Is our life perfect? Nope. But in a way I think it is perfectly un-perfect. Our life is unique. After all, our family is unique. </div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Am I a perfect mom/wife/friend? Not even close. But I am me. And I am slowly but surely beginning to realize that I don't have to be anyone else. I don't have to impress anyone. All I have to do is be the best me I can be. </div><div style="text-align: justify;">
<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><meta equiv="content-type" content="text/html; charset=utf-8">So this is my life. Is it glamorous? Nope. Is it sometimes crazy? Absolutely! Would I change it? Not for anything in the world!!</div><div style="text-align: justify;">
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<br /></div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-25029399259313556642011-04-24T21:01:00.002-05:002011-04-24T21:10:20.239-05:00Emma-IsmsOur sweet Emmalee turned six on April 6. I still can't believe she is six years old already. Where does the time go?<div><br /></div><div>Em is very funny! She has been cracking us up lately. Here are a few of the latest.</div><div><br /></div><div>Brent was putting her to bed a few nights ago and he told her he couldn't stand being in her room because it was so messy. She just looked at him and said, "Oh yea, well you're complicated!"</div><div><br /></div><div>One morning she was complaining to Brent that her tooth hurt. I asked him what she said and he told me, "Em has a toothache." She said, "I don't have a toothache, my tooth just hurts!"</div><div><br /></div><div>I told Em to get in the shower. I was in my room which is near her bathroom. She came into my room and said, "Mom, I'd be delighted if we could communicate while I'm in the shower."<br /></div><div><br /></div><div>We love you, sweet Emmalee!!</div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-27977955954762064302011-01-05T01:39:00.001-05:002011-01-05T01:41:12.928-05:00Pure Heaven<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 14px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" >Best part of my day? Tyler said, "I want snuggle mom, pwease!" Complete with hugging himself when he said snuggle and signing please. There is no way to resist a request like that!! He pushed me down on the couch saying, "lay down," climbed up on me and fell asleep. Pure heaven, I tell you!</span></span>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-79991678138801292582011-01-02T14:12:00.003-05:002011-01-02T14:30:03.056-05:00PotpourriWow, I can hardly believe that Christmas has come and gone and we are already two days into the new year. 2010 seems to have gone by really quickly. I'm glad. It wasn't the easiest year for our family. Not the most difficult either but none the less, I am glad to see it go.<div><br /></div><div>We have enjoyed having the kids home for Christmas break. We are also looking forward to them heading back to school tomorrow. I think Ty is most excited. He has asked for his teacher and aide every single day since break started. He loves those ladies and everyone else in his class. What a blessing!</div><div><br /></div><div>Emmalee has been cracking us up, as usual. Here are a few new Emma-Isms --</div><div><br /></div><div>Em came home and told me that she told her teacher that our family speaks Spanish. I was surprised by this since we don't. At all. I told her that we don't in fact speak Spanish and she said, "of course we do. You know, uno, dos, tres....." Love it!</div><div><br /></div><div>Em has been singing a lot lately. The funny part is that she doesn't really know the words. Some of our favorite renditions are "Fa-lees La De Dah, Fa-lees La De Dah, Fa-lees La De Dah oh blah, blah, blah." "You get your head up over...." (This is her version of the Hannah Montana theme song.) She's a hoot.</div><div><br /></div><div>Natey is doing pretty well for the most part. I think Brent and I have resigned ourselves to the fact that he is going to have to have a colostomy. This was not an easy decision for us. But watching him struggle with the constant constipation is agonizing. We are going to make another appointment with the surgeon and see what our options are.</div><div><br /></div><div>Brent is still struggling a great deal. He is trying a new medication given by IV infusion. We are praying it will help to relieve his symptoms. So far there has been no change but we've been told that it could take several doses.</div><div><br /></div><div>Our Christmas was good. Very low key. It was a nice day and we sure enjoyed being together as a family.</div><div><br /></div><div>We have a new family member. Max is a four month old yorkie poo who weighs in at a whopping five pounds. He is nothing but fluff and love. He is a super good puppy who LOVES the kids! It took us several months and lots of talking with doctors and such to find a dog that Emmalee wouldn't be allergic to. So far she has done great with Max and we are praying he will be a permanent member of our family. He is a love!!</div><div><br /></div><div>The new year brings about thoughts of resolutions. I hate making them because I usually fail and I really don't like that. There is something I've wanted to do for a long time, though, and my brother in law Kyle and I sort of challenged each other to do it. I am keeping a photo a day blog for the year and hoping I can keep up on it. The new blog address is <a href="http://jodiedailyphoto.blogspot.com/">http://jodiedailyphoto.blogspot.com</a> I think it will be a lot of fun!</div><div><br /></div><div>Here's hoping the new year brings peace, joy and good health!</div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-38086898991902203362010-11-30T19:17:00.003-05:002010-11-30T23:41:57.291-05:00National Adoption Month<div style="text-align: justify;">Here we are at the 30th of November. I'm not exactly sure where this month went. It seems like it was just 31 for 21 in October and now we're at the end of November. Thanksgiving is over. Christmas is upon us. The year is nearly done.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">It occurred to me that I had failed to post anything in regards to National Adoption Month. I feel like a total slacker!</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">November is indeed National Adoption Month. I LOVE that there is an entire month dedicated to adoption. We talk about adoption often in our home. National Adoption Month is just another way to focus on the topic.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">For those of you who may not know, all three of our incredible children came to our family through the miracle of adoption. Tyler was ten weeks old when we adopted him on August 11, 2004. Emmalee came to us just eight months later when she was exactly two weeks old. Her adoption day is April 20, 2005. Nathaniel was born on September 1, 2007. He was 15 weeks early and spent almost four months in the NICU. His adoption day is December 21, 2007 and he came home from the hospital on December 29.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Each of our children's adoption stories is unique; as unique as each child. Each of them came to us when they were meant to. Each of them came to us HOW they were meant to. I have no doubt that these children were meant to be ours. And I have no doubt that adoption was always the plan for our family.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Of course, that is easy to say now that I am blessed with these little ones. I wasn't always so sure. I wasn't always so confident that adoption was our plan. There were many, many tears shed, many prayers uttered, many days of worry and fear. There were also years of doctor's visits and fertility treatments. Years of self pity and doubt. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I will tell you that once we made the adoption decision, everything fell into place. It was as if Heavenly Father breathed a sigh of relief that we had finally figured it out. Things happened quickly once our final decision was made. We completed our initial home study in April 2004 and Tyler was home in August. One year from the initial home study we brought Emmalee home. And just three and a half years after that first home study we were blessed with Nathaniel. Yes, once we accepted and understood the plan for our family, we were blessed.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">There isn't a day that I don't think about and pray for each of our children's birth parents. It is because of them, their love and their sacrifices that we are a family. We will be forever in their debt.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Tyler was also blessed with "first parents." Not only does he have incredible birth parents, he has amazing first parents. We love his first parents as well. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Did I ever expect when Brent and I got married that we would build our family thorough adoption? In a word, no. It honestly never occurred to me that we wouldn't be able to have biological children. It just wasn't something I had thought of. But WOW! I simply can not imagine our lives without THESE children. I know, without a doubt, that these children were meant to be in our family. And I also know that the only way they were able to come to us is through adoption. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Our children are the greatest blessings in our lives. They have made us a family. They have brought us closer together as a couple. I thank my Father in Heaven every single day for these beautiful children!!</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-33505509740695110952010-11-22T02:24:00.004-05:002010-11-22T02:43:23.429-05:00Eye Color and Love<div style="text-align: justify;">Dear Emmalee,</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I adore you! You are one of the sweetest little people I know. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Sometimes I wonder if you will ever sleep through the night in your own bed. You are almost six, you know. </div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Okay, the truth is that I secretly like that you come snuggle with us. We could set a clock by you. It is almost always 1:00 a.m when you come in. Sometimes you are a bit cranky and get a little irritated if I don't move over right away. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and don't even remember you coming in. And sometimes, like two nights ago, the best thing in the whole world happens.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">As usual, you came in right around 1:00. You snuggled right into me and I was still kind of awake so I said hello to you and then you and I had the best conversation. You were so smiley and had the sweetest little whispery voice. You told me how much you love me, (all the way to the moon, all the countries, all the states, all of China, all the way back to the bottom of the deep blue sea, all of New York and all around the world.) And then you asked me how much I love you. (All around the world forever, all the way through the entire universe and all the way back to the bottom of the deep blue sea.) You told me how much you love daddy and Tyler and Nate. You told me that you're glad I'm your momma. It was perfect. It made me so very happy! I told you that you and I and daddy have the same color eyes. And guess what you said? You told me "that's how we know we were meant to be together forever!" You know what, sweet girl? You're right. We were meant to be together forever. No doubt about it. You were meant to be our girl and we were meant to be your momma and daddy. What an incredible gift it is to be a forever family!<br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">I know that someday, all too soon, I will wake up and you won't be snuggled in bed with us. I'll stay awake until 1:00 in the morning and you won't come in. You'll be too big. And when that day comes, I will be sad. I may even cry a little. But no matter what, I will always have the memory of one perfect night, snuggled tight with my baby girl, whispering about how much we love each other. Thank you for giving me that amazing gift, Emmalee. I am so blessed to be your momma!</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Love,</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Momma</div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-79304443096749168832010-11-01T21:19:00.001-05:002010-11-01T21:22:21.559-05:00I Am The Child<div style="text-align: justify; line-height: 20px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" ><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">I found this on another blog and cried as I read it. Grab some tissues!</span></span></div><div style="text-align: center; color: rgb(76, 38, 0); font-size: 13px; line-height: 20px; "><u><b><span style="font-size: large; "><br /></span></b></u></div><div style="text-align: center; color: rgb(76, 38, 0); font-size: 13px; line-height: 20px; "><u><b><span style="font-size: large; "><br /></span></b></u></div><div style="text-align: center; color: rgb(76, 38, 0); font-size: 13px; line-height: 20px; "><u><b><span style="font-size: large; ">I AM THE CHILD</span></b></u></div><br /><div style="text-align: justify; color: rgb(76, 38, 0); line-height: 20px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">I am the child who cannot talk. You often pity me, I see it in your eyes. You wonder how much I am aware of -- I see that as well. I am aware of much -- whether you are happy or sad or fearful, patient or impatient, full of love and desire, or if you are just doing your duty by me. I marvel at your frustration, knowing mine to be far greater, for I cannot express myself or my needs as you do. </span></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></span></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">You cannot conceive my isolation, so complete it is at times. I do not gift you with clever conversation, cute remarks to be laughed over and repeated. I do not give you answers to your everyday questions, responses over my well-being, sharing my needs, or comments about the world about me. I do not give you rewards as defined by the world's standards -- great strides in development that you can credit yourself; I do not give you understanding as you know it. </span></span></div></span><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">What I give you is so much more valuable -- I give you instead opportunities. Opportunities to discover the depth of your character, not mine; the depth of your love, your commitment, your patience, your abilities; the opportunity to explore your spirit more deeply than you imagined possible. I drive you further than you would ever go on your own, working harder, seeking answers to your many questions with no answers. I am the child who cannot talk. </span></span></div></span><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">I am the child who cannot walk. The world seems to pass me by. You see the longing in my eyes to get out of this chair, to run and play like other children. There is much you take for granted. I want the toys on the shelf, I need to go to the bathroom, oh I've dropped my fork again. I am dependant on you in these ways. My gift to you is to make you more aware of your great fortune, your healthy back and legs, your ability to do for yourself. Sometimes people appear not to notice me; I always notice them. I feel not so much envy as desire, desire to stand upright, to put one foot in front of the other, to be independent. I give you awareness. I am the child who cannot walk. </span></span></div></span><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">I am the child who is mentally impaired. I don't learn easily, if you judge me by the world's measuring stick, what I do know is infinite joy in simple things. I am not burdened as you are with the strifes and conflicts of a more complicated life. My gift to you is to grant you the freedom to enjoy things as a child, to teach you how much your arms around me mean, to give you love. I give you the gift of simplicity. I am the child who is mentally impaired. </span></span></div></span><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">I am the disabled child. I am your teacher. If you allow me, I will teach you what is really important in life. I will give you and teach you unconditional love. I gift you with my innocent trust, my dependency upon you. I teach you about how precious this life is and about not taking things for granted. I teach you about forgetting your own needs and desires and dreams. I teach you giving. Most of all I teach you hope and faith. I am the disabled child.</span></span></div></span><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;"><br /></span></div><span class="Apple-style-span"><div style="text-align: justify;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 20px; "><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: medium;">Author Unknown</span></span></div></span>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-74200754331959142592010-10-31T20:33:00.003-05:002010-10-31T20:48:14.416-05:0031 for 21, Day 31!!!!<div style="text-align: justify;">Wow, I can't believe that this is the last post for 31 for 21. I certainly wasn't perfect at this and didn't post every day as I had hoped to. But I am really thankful that I participated. Mostly I am thankful for all the other blogs I have found. I have read many uplifting stories this month. I have also seen some amazingly adorable children from around the world!</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">My ultimate goal for participating this month was to help people realize that those with Down syndrome are more alike than different. They love, they laugh, they hurt, they cry, they learn, they teach, they have friends, they go to school, they work, they often get married. In other words, they are just like everyone else. Tyler is just like everyone else. Yes he has his struggles. But who doesn't? Everyone has special needs in one way or another. His just happen to be more noticeable.</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;">Not a day goes by that I don't feel humbled by the fact that God chose me to be Tyler's mom. There are many times that I feel unworthy of such an incredible blessing. I am overwhelmed with love for this amazing child. Being his mom is more than I ever could have hoped for in life. He makes me want to be the best person I can be. He makes me want to work harder, to be kinder, to enjoy the little things in life. He helps me remember to smile more, to laugh more, to sing and dance more. He can make me smile in an instant, no matter how blue I may be feeling. His love and compassion for others never ceases to amaze me. His spirit shines through in all that he does. I am simply in awe of this sweet, sweet boy!</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-73921909109283691432010-10-29T19:14:00.003-05:002010-10-29T19:16:48.011-05:0031 for 21, Day 29<div style="text-align: justify;">Emmalee and Tyler were playing today and Ty was really enjoying it. They were getting along so well. Emmalee looked and Brent and I and said, "we're best friends; I just know it." I looked at Brent and we both had tears in our eyes. I am truly thankful that our children love each other so much and that they really are best friends.</div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-67893591905952851732010-10-27T20:28:00.000-05:002010-10-27T20:28:45.776-05:0031 for 21, Day 27<object style="background-image:url(http://i1.ytimg.com/vi/PE_5_BbZlbI/hqdefault.jpg)" width="480" height="295"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/PE_5_BbZlbI?fs=1&hl=en_US"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/PE_5_BbZlbI?fs=1&hl=en_US" width="480" height="295" allowscriptaccess="never" allowfullscreen="true" wmode="transparent" type="application/x-shockwave-flash"></embed></object>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-23044364790247907952010-10-26T19:46:00.000-05:002010-10-26T19:46:14.119-05:0031 for 21, Day 26<a href="http://goo.gl/photos/Sd4VSsAx3X" imageanchor="1" style="clear:right;margin-bottom:1em;margin-left:1em"><img border="0" src="http://lh5.ggpht.com/_P8cwCLQf9Do/TMc4VDodcKI/AAAAAAAADiE/hf8K77B7m5A/s512/IMAG0141.jpg" /></a>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-721343890984107927.post-54207178800234301662010-10-25T21:06:00.003-05:002010-10-25T21:36:28.147-05:0031 for 21, Day 25<div style="text-align: justify;">Tyler had surgery on his left eye today. They replaced the lens in his eye with a synthetic lens. He did great, as usual. (He had the right eye done a few weeks ago.)</div><div style="text-align: justify;"><br /></div><div><div style="text-align: justify;">Here are some fun pictures of him before surgery. Enjoy!</div><br /><a href="http://www.blogger.com/%3Ca%20href=" com="" lh="" photo="" feat="embedwebsite""><img src="http://lh6.ggpht.com/_P8cwCLQf9Do/TMYWuCqbjqI/AAAAAAAADhI/CxAwLJSF0g4/s288/IMAG0150.jpg" height="194" width="288" /></a> <a href="http://www.blogger.com/%3Ca%20href=" com="" lh="" photo="" feat="embedwebsite""><img src="http://lh5.ggpht.com/_P8cwCLQf9Do/TMYW4sLUCCI/AAAAAAAADhQ/5F_I5Fd8nOw/s288/IMAG0149.jpg" height="194" width="288" /></a><br /><br /><a href="http://www.blogger.com/%3Ca%20href=" com="" lh="" photo="" feat="embedwebsite""><img src="http://lh4.ggpht.com/_P8cwCLQf9Do/TMYXRMP9foI/AAAAAAAADhY/8q0i1ROdnLw/s288/IMAG0148.jpg" height="288" width="194" /></a> <a href="http://www.blogger.com/%3Ca%20href=" com="" lh="" photo="" feat="embedwebsite""><img src="http://lh4.ggpht.com/_P8cwCLQf9Do/TMYWgr_79hI/AAAAAAAADhg/cQ_bgfpX0Vo/s288/IMAG0151.jpg" height="288" width="194" /></a> <a href="http://www.blogger.com/%3Ca%20href=" com="" lh="" photo="" feat="embedwebsite""><img src="http://lh3.ggpht.com/_P8cwCLQf9Do/TMYVvJWM8TI/AAAAAAAADhw/GpzVWjM-Qfs/s288/IMAG0153.jpg" height="288" width="194" /></a><br /><br /><br /></div>Jodiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11074894449883719225noreply@blogger.com3