Sunday, March 2, 2008

Our New Reality

Cancer. Cancer is our new reality. Our simple life is gone. Our child has cancer. Leukemia, to be specific. Tyler has leukemia. There. I said it and didn't even cry that time. I said it without breaking down and sobbing. Our perfect, beautiful, happy little boy has leukemia. Our lives will forever be changed. I know more about leukemia today that I ever thought possible. And yet, this is just the beginning. We've only just scratched the surface. There are still many, many unknowns. The biggest unknown of all is why. Why did this happen? Why did this sweet, innocent child develop this horrible disease? Why?
And so it begins. This new reality. This horrible, awful, wish-it-were-a-dream reality. So much for not sobbing.

18 comments:

jkribbit said...

Jodie, I am so, so sorry. I just can't even imagine what you're going through. Please know that you are in our hearts and prayers tonight and in the coming weeks as you begin your battle. We love you all.

Paulette said...

Keep the faith and pray for strength!

wsweden said...

Jodie,
Tyler will get through this. You and your family will come out of this stronger than ever. As horrible as our cancer experience was, it has brought us together and made us stronger as a family. It will be challenging but remember you have lots of support and don't be afraid to ask for it. If there is anything I can do don't hesitate to ask. We will be keeping you all in our prayers.
Janet

Michelle said...

Oh Jodi I was so saddened to read the news this morning! Did this all come about because of the flu he just had, or had it been suspected already? Tyler will be in my prayers as he embarks on this new journey in his life...praying for stength for all of you.

Colette said...

Jodie...Jeff and I are very sad to hear this news. Keep your faith strong and know that we are all here for you! You are a very strong woman/mom...you have a very strong network and we are here. Let us know if we can do anything for you. Hugs and so many prayers are coming your way.

Julie said...

Jodie, I am here. I am still taking this all in. Praying for you and Brent. God knew you were the parents for Tyler and knows you can help him best! i LOVE you guys. praying. HUGS. Peace beyond understanding to you. - Julie

Lanna said...

You've been on my mind since I first got your e-mail last night. Little Tyler is in my prayers (as are you all!). Hang in there! I'm here if you need me.

M, G, and AJ said...

Jodie, you go ahead and sob. Just sob your eyes out. If you try to hold it in it will consume you, so take an hour with a pillow to scream into if you need to, and cry.

And then come back, and you'll be ready to continue doing exactly what you were made to do - be Tyler's awesome, incredible, fabulously strong mama.

Praying, praying, praying!

Becky said...

My heart just aches for you. I agree with Gen - cry if you need to. Let Brent be the strong one, if only for a few hours. Sometimes it can be nice to be the one comforted, instead of doing the comforting. You will get through this. Without having ever met you, I know your strength. I see it in your children's smiles and accomplishments. I see it in the way you love and cherish every moment of their lives. I see it in the way you worry about being a good mother (YOU ARE). I see it in the way you can lean on your husband, family and friends in your times of trouble. We will continue to keep you all in out prayers.

terilynnh2000 said...

We love you guys. I believe in the power of prayer, and I believe it's surrounded you and your family in full force. Many hugs. Call anytime day or night. Your amazing.

Mels said...

Oh Jodie...you probably feel sick inside, maybe even numb or just plain hurt, that is such an awful thing that has happen to your precious boy. I know how shocked I was when Luke was diagnosed with diabetes, he was my "little guy" at times I felt that my life would never be normal, I wondered how I could take on this huge task. I don't know how you'll do it. But you are his mother thus I just know you will, one day at a time. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I ache for you and your family.

Anonymous said...

Dear friends,
It is a hard road you walk. Do not give in to despair. There is an Answer. There is One who knows all our pain. His Name is Jesus. He is enough. He comforts us in our trials.

2 Corinthians 1:3-6 says,
"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also abounds through Christ."

You are in my prayers, that Christ will be your all-sufficient strength. May you experience His grace during this time, and learn to rest and trust, and even to hope, in Him. He cares so deeply for you, and will not forsake you in your trial. Cry out to Him, and He will be near.

Pam said...

Just remember you are amazing. We love you guys, and let me know what I can do, okay?

((HUGS!!))

Wondering when you will find us said...

Praying for all of you, especially Tler! You are so strong!May God bless u all!

Gracie said...

Jodie-
I know this must be hard for you and this isnt fair...it simply isnt....I am so sorry and I know that God has a plan for your little precious boy who doesnt deserve this horrible disease. I will pray for Tyler and for strength to help the rest of your family and you get through this...again...my prayers are with you all.

Have Faith,
Gracie

Anna Grace`s Jie Jie said...

Keep your faith strong!! All things happen for a reason!! It will get better!! I know it will!! My heart is so for down syndrome children!! They are my life i love all special needs children! You have beautiful kids! Things will be better tomorrow!!

Sustenance Scout said...

Hugs and many prayers from Denver heading your way, K.

Mommy to those Special Ks said...

We will be praying for Tyler. My daughter Kennedy has Ds and just finished treatment for Leukemia last Fall. If you ever need anything, please feel free to ask.