I can't sleep. It's after 1:00 in the morning and I can't sleep. Why you ask? Well, tonight is the first night Emmalee has gone without a binks, (pacifier.) I think, okay I know, I am having a more difficult time with this than she is. I am sad to admit that my baby is getting big. She just turned two. I always said that when she was two the binks would have to go. I am shocked that I followed through. It is one of the last pieces of her "babyhood" and I didn't realize how emotionally attached I was. :) I remember going through this same thing several months ago when she and Tyler went off the bottle. It is hard. This is not one of those things that you are prepared for. You read about how to help the child transition from the loss of the bottle or pacifier or whatever. No one bothers to tell you that you may have a hard time with it as well. They forget to mention that you will be overcome with guilt for robbing your child of their comfort item. That you will suffer an emotional breakdown because you have had to realize that your child is no longer a baby. That once it's all said and done, you may actually need a binks to cope. (Okay, it isn't that bad!) In truth, I didn't realize that I would have such a difficult time letting go of all that the binks represents. It is just one more reminder that my little girl has moved from the baby stage to the toddler stage. The next step is moving her out of her crib. I'm crying just thinking about that. At least I have a few years to prepare before she starts asking for the car keys!